MY FAMILY:

mother:
every time when she got trouble, she would tell me and say about the things over and over again, instead of me telling her anything that bug me, i had to take over the role of the mother job by listening to her complaint over and over again... very irrating and when i got troubles, difficulties, i had no one to speak to and i do not trust councilor... people cannot keep their trap shut... even though i'm sad and angry or anything , depressed ... still need to act normal and act as if nothing happen.

dad:
everyday in the morning , he must say some de-moralising stuff and make me so sad that i don't want to attend sch. he wants me to score a single dight for L1b5 and he does not consider how i feel. the class, smart people like lim only get 15, or something like that and he want me to get 9, what kind of expectation is that.... he presumes i'm happy, but i'm not. when it comes to a crappy project and i know that the work produce by other people is bullshit, i had to do everything, and as i don't want to get screwed up, but when i just stop working and play for half an hour, he will start nagging about where i should stand in class and stuff that makes a night miserable. if i explode or something, i would be dead by then.

uncle:
that ass is the one i hate most in my life. i once told a friend hate is a great word and should use dislike but now i will use hate. he had been comparing results since pri 1 to pri 6 and all the time he tell my dad how good the daughter result is and i kanna the next day for no reason. he like to compare height and weight as he knows that i will lose to his daughter and he will say things like eat more, jump more and he does not know the fuckin meaning of puberty... girls are faster ,10-14 guy are 12-16 and like that, during chi new year, for 6 year , humiliated in front of relatives... how does that feel. i never believe in forgive and forget but is remember and revenge, this is the price to pay, an eye for an eye, matter of time only

sch:
in sch there is only mr rich-guy and nuk generator, both are rich don't know what some ppl life is but i seen the other side of rich-guy dick lee as he does show maturity but for puvi, he will learn it in the future a hard and pain lesson. mr lim became his old self again picking up insults and he will learn on his death bed that an ill mouth can kill. by not return a punch from puvan is a revenge good enough as let someone else be my killer.

i am never a kind soul, nudge me , cross the line, and you watch it, [ good thing for bitches is that i don't hit girls] displaying your colours is a mistake when the time comes show it and thats the end of everything. anything in the way get fucked off and it must not survive.
if i get a nice shelling for the results, i'll show my dad what he wants by going on a destruction course, study hard and be unfeeling as emotion is the nly thing that is in the way, he will regret this if he continues doing what he is doing by pushing me... to me Sherrie method is enjoy and enjoy method where she enjoys life and produc good results but it is not an option to me and it is either hard working, the slow method, not confirming results or destruction course, at the end of everything, the result will usually look nice but it kills one emotion, feeling and attitude, it is a trade with the devil.